After what seemed like ages, I finally decided to get back to coloring. I’m pretty sure that the last time I colored a drawing was like 4 years ago, when I took an art class back in INTI. It definitely has been a while.


Got my coloring book (tak pandai melukis, so kena la beli coloring book) & my oil pastels!

Of course I chose to color Dory first!


I’m like 1% done guys!!!

Nampak sangat lah excitednya. I have like a couple 20 other pics in my phone from every possible angle; I even stopped coloring every 5 min to take a picture. And of course I sent a couple of them to Afiq because he wants I want him to be updated of my coloring progress. Haha! Well, about half an hour later..


TA-DA! Not the best, but I am definitely super happy of how it turned out!

Now that I am looking at this picture, I am reminded of the days when my siblings (if you happen to be reading this post, I just wanted to tell you that I miss both of you so much ok!!) and I would spend hours just drawing and coloring, without a care in the world. Good old times..

Now that I am looking at this picture, I am also reminded of how rewarding it feels to do what I love to do. I’m sure you know what I’m talking about. That feeling of major satisfaction and happiness followed by the excitement of your next escape/project (for me, it would probably be me, coloring a picture of Marlin, Nemo or maybe Hank the octopus!) 😍

Days like this, it’s either I control my emotions, or they control me. Sadly, it’s a battle that I’m constantly losing.

I woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning, and now, every little thing consumes me. I start noticing and pointing out all the things I hate and obsess over it. And no, I cannot get over any of that. At least not now… 


Now that I am finally done with the semester (YAY!), I can finally sit down in peace and write. If you are still studying for your finals, you can do this! All the best! 💪🏻

Well, obviously this is a long overdue post, since it is about my birthday which was like 2 weeks ago? 😅

But anyway…

It started out like any other Sunday. I slept in and woke up at about noon, just in time for lunch. HEHE!

That day, I woke up to so many wonderful text messages, and posts on Facebook and Instagram from my family and friends. Well umm, I may not have replied to each and every one of the message/post (i promise i will!), but really, thank you so much for all the kind words and warm wishes! May Allah bless each and every one of you! ❤️

If only I could, I would stay in bed all day but I had to get up and get ready since I was supposed to have lunch with Afiq and then have dinner with my housemates that day.

It was about 3PM when Afiq finally arrived. Of course, we haven’t decided on where to eat yet. So, both of us agreed to go to Greyhouse first to get our favorite, the Creme Brulee Latte! But before we could even order, Afiq suddenly went out of the coffee shop, and a few seconds later, rushed toward me and almost half-screamed,”Our uber driver dah sampai!

And at that moment,  I knew something was up…

We were in the car, and oh the road was so familiar.. Of course it was, cause before I knew it, we were in front of his house.🙄I tried to be difficult and refused to go in. Segan laaaa please. I did not sign up for this k!

Minutes later, I was blindfolded, led inside Afiq’s house, and then into his bedroom (nothing fishy k guys I swear! Diyana, Mai, Izz, Arissa, Huda, Anisya and Diana were all in his bedroom at that time!) Even after the blindfold was taken off, I was still asked to close my eyes… Then, makeup artists, Izz, Mai and Diyana worked their magic and turned me from “so-so” into….


A vampire! I even had the veins under my eyes and everything k, just like Elena and Caroline and Damon and Stefan! (flips tudung)

My friends, they took some time out of their busy schedule to celebrate my birthday. To be there and celebrate my birthday with me is one thing, but to throw a Vampire Diaries themed birthday party for me?! What did I ever do to deserve this?! I swear, they really spoiled me; the stunning makeup, the amazing outfit, the delicious food, the presents, and of course, the best company! What more could I ask?! THANK YOU SO SO MUCH FOR EVERYTHING GUYS!!!

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Beautiful setting feat. the handsome Damon Salvatore. Haha wah gitoh!


Thank you Dins for the amazing editing skills, turning all of us into vampires! xx


Presenting, the vampires of Mystic Falls


Really, I can never thank Him enough for sending them into my life. May Allah bless each and every one of you, always! ❤️

And no no no, I’m not done yet…

Picture Credits: Diyana Syaza/ Naim Putera/ Afiq Junaidy/ Naqib Aziz



Bb gurls 😍


One with Miss Photographer! 💞


And one with this guy!


We even met for another time a week later for photoshoot session #2! These guys seriously are, THE BEST!


Well, now I can’t help but to look forward to November 27, 2017! If you know what I mean..😏

22? Really?

To be honest, I wasn’t particularly excited about turning 22. I am a senior in college who has no idea on where she will be at or what she will be doing after graduation. I feel like I am so far behind compared to my other friends; some of them have applied for jobs, and others have submitted their application to graduate schools. My future life? It appears to me more uncertain than ever.

It really is easy for me to dwell in the land of uncertainties and fill my mind with negative thoughts, but that is not how I want to spend my birthday. I don’t want to think about how far I have come or how far I would have to go. I want to spend today in the present; to enjoy every moment and appreciate what I have and where I am now.


I woke up this morning, and again the first thing I did was to go on PUMSA’s Facebook page in hopes that all of those posts about you will not be there. And again, I was disappointed.

It has been three days, Taufiq. Three days since you left us.

I still remember the last time I saw you. It was during the Malaysian Night carnival. You were playing congkak with Beatrice. You were so happy.

Why? Why did you have to leave so soon?

It was 1:30PM last Friday (Nov 4, 2016), when I received the text from Mai.


“Tlg sedekahkan Al-Fatihah”

“Taufiq dah takda”

I read those words, over and over again. I felt numb. I didn’t know what to do. I swear I have never felt that way before. In my room, I sat in silence…

Just then, the very limited and precious memories that we shared came flooding. So did the regrets. How I wish I had gotten the chance to know you better. How I wish we had shared more memories. But I know it’s too late. But then, when I think more about it, I should be more grateful than sad, because He has allowed me the opportunity to meet and befriend you.

That night, we gathered at ISGL, recited surah Yasin, and tahlil for you. All of us, regardless of race and religion came to pay our last respects to you, Taufiq. You know, everyone only had the nicest things to say about you, and the sweetest memories shared with you.

All of us miss you Taufiq, but we know that you are in a better place now. When time comes, inshaaAllah we’ll meet again. Until then, rest well okay?

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I also promise to do better now, to pay more attention to the people around me, to spend more time with them, to appreciate them more, and also to always remember that death can come anytime.

Mixed Feelings

Knowing that this will be the final season of TVD..

Well, of course I’m super excited that my favorite TV show is back but I’m just dreading it because this time, I know for sure that this is it. TVD will not continue after season 8. It’s the end. Like, for real. THE END.

It’s just a TV show, I get it. But the thing is, I have been watching TVD since 2010. It’s the show that I have been watching all through high school and college; it’s the show that I look forward to watch every Friday night, the show that I watch as a reward for finishing up an assignment or an exam. So, what am I supposed to do when it ends?! T.T

And, of course, they had to make this “Official Goodbye” video. I cannot even.

But all of that aside, the season premieres tonight! Guess I’ll just have enjoy it while it lasts. To the beginning of the end!

Game Day: Purdue vs. Iowa


Purdue (black & gold) vs. Iowa (white & yellow)

The first thing that I can remember when I sat down to write this post was how fast my excitement died upon realizing that I know nothing about football. After getting to our seats, I remember just staring at the field, not knowing what was going on. 😭 But thanks to Afiq, who diligently explained the A-Z of football, I finally got all the information that I needed and actually enjoyed (minus the fact that we lost) watching the rest of the game! I might actually go to or watch more football games after this. It’s fun, really!

And, here’s one of the highlights of the game!

Btw, for all of you out there who are new to football (just like me), here you go. The A-Z of football:

Although I enjoyed the whole experience, my favorite part was probably the halftime show. Purdue’s marching band was amazing!


Don’t look at him ok, look at the background! So cantik!

We basically stayed for the entire thing, and the game ended with….

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Not gonna lie, I was really sad! If onlyyyy we had more time for just three more touchdowns….😭 😭 😭 But it’s okay, cause I believe our team did their best! Also, there are more games coming, so hopefully we’ll do better and win the other games!


Group photo!

All About Flowers

So Mai went home from lab with a bunch of flowers today, and I got the chance to play florist and do a flower arrangement!


Daisy Mums, Carnation, Roses, Pom Pom flower, etc. So many of them!

As soon as Mai said, “Ambiklah nina bunga ni. Ada banyak ni.” , I started choosing the flowers that I wanted. Spent about half an hour (or maybe more) just trying to pick the combination that I liked most, and I ended up with this! Combining the purple Daisy Mums and purplish-white Heathers, I got myself this really simple yet beautiful arrangement (i don’t even know if i can call this an arrangement. bunga ada dua je!).



Now, my photo album is full with pictures of this arrangement from all possible angles. 😂


Btw, this is a flower corsage that Mai made for me last week (a bit layu now, but of course still very beautiful)!

Mai, if you are reading this, thank you for teaching me the dos and don’ts of flower arranging and also thank you for the beautiful corsage! 😘